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BLACK BUTTERFLY
POETRY, PROSE AND PAINTINGS
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At the dance
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It took me hours just to decide to go. I have no date and nothing new to wear but go I must, I've told my self I will and maybe, if I'm lucky, you'll be there.
My sister said that black would suit me better but I chose white, in spite of what she said I'm not, don't want to be sophisticated I won't pretend, just be myself instead.
My courage ebbs and flows as I get closer and at the door it all but disappears. The lights are much too bright, I look quite ghostly the "music's" much too loud, it hurts my ears.
If I could change my mind or maybe vanish or better still not have started out at all but breezing in they go and take me with them a white wall flower at the Summer ball.
Beneath the flashing lights I stand alone and watch the others' grotesque, modern dance in low cut dresses, suits that do not suit them. they bounce and wiggle, gyrate, bend and prance.
I'm all but gone when I finally see you standing on your own quite near the door. And seeing you my heart starts beating faster I make my towards you across the floor.
I push aside the beery invitations the scrubbed clean hands that paw and press and pray in a silly dream I make my way towards you and smile because you do not turn away
And Oh I want your hands to just caress me to run your fingers softly through my hair to take my hand in yours, then softly kiss it but you smile and say you're pleased to see me there.
And when the music softens, grows more mellow you lead me out to dance so close to you. No cares for what the others think or say, we dance so close together just we two.
Now I wonder if I'm only dreaming If this is wishful thinking on my part if any minute now my eyes will open and then the stupid, lonely tears will start.
If this is just a dream, my mind is whispering, then let me dream and never let me wake to be alone at home with no one would be much more than my sad heart could take.
Now once again the music quickens and you and I will not stand the pace we move back to the place we started. Smiling, you bend and kiss my face.
It's not a dream, we walk home in the morning. A rose red dawn tints the cloudy sky. The quiet streets echo to our footsteps the world's last happy couple, you and I.
At my door, you take my hand and kiss it. No caution that we must not be seen. I do not care, you do not care, this is our moment the sweet continuation of a dream.
And when again in day light I see you with all the normal trappings of the day, I do not blush when deliberately you touch me I do not quickly pull my hand away.
Gone is the awkward child that no one cared for, the silly thing too clever for her age. The chosen, golden girl her place has taken. The little bird has just unlocked her cage. |